A nurse who allegedly arranged to meet a 14-year-old girl he planned to behead with an axe and eat started having fantasies about cannibalism at the age of six, a court has heard.
Dale Bolinger, 57, told police when he was first arrested in February last year for attempting to sexually groom a girl under the age of 16 that he had had fantasies about staff at a kindergarten taking some of the girls to the kitchen to eat them, prosecutor Martin Yale told Canterbury Crown Court.
Reading Bolinger's interview to the court, Mr Yale continued: "By the time I got to 14, I turned into the villain of the piece and I wondered what it would be like to eat a girl."
Bolinger, formerly of Canterbury, Kent, also blamed his "very domineering" mother for his behaviour which he described as "weird" and "very strange", the jury was told.
He told police he had never discussed his fantasies with his wife Rosemary or his son Rick and said he felt ashamed, the court heard.
He told police: "It was less to do with sexual gratification and more to do with anger.
"The people that do it (cannibalism) are seriously deranged, and I may be many things but I am not deranged."
Mr Yale said Bolinger described his cannibalism fantasy as "Jekyll and Hyde" but not something he could fulfil as he would never harm anyone.
Bolinger said in interview: "I think it was more to do with disliking my mother more than hating women."
He told police he had been brought up in a military household because his father was in the US Air Force and he had been suppressed as a child.
Bolinger told the police that his mother had also made a drunken pass at him when he was 15, which had left him "shocked", and that he had been emotionally absent from his son, the way his father had been with him, the court heard.
Mr Yale mentioned conversations Bolinger had had with other users on the Dark Fetish Network (DFN) including someone called Sally and another person called Lindsay-Su who wanted to become a slave.
The court heard that Bolinger had gone to meet her at London's Euston station but she never arrived.
He told police he had had online chats with a girl he believed was 14 and called Eva, who wished to be decapitated, the court heard.
Bolinger claimed he was so concerned by their conversation that he believed the girl to be at risk, which is why he travelled to Ashford International station in Kent to meet her, it is alleged.
Mr Yale said Bolinger told police: "At no time have I ever killed, kidnapped, taken or eaten a person."
The court heard that Bolinger told the police he had bought the axe from Homebase to remove two tree stumps from the side of his house.
He also admitted in interview that the discs found in his home which contained indecent images of children were his, the jury heard.
Mr Yale said one image contained a girl aged between six and nine laying naked on a serving plate with an apple in her mouth, and others were of a similar nature, it is alleged.
When questioned about the images, Bolinger told police: "I do not find children sexually attractive but I do find them interesting as a food source."
Paul Jarvis, defending Bolinger, said: "There is not a single piece of evidence from the family home to say that anyone met their death there or has been consumed at the property."
He asked Bolinger whether he had ever killed anybody, eaten human flesh or sexually assaulted a child.
He said: "Have you ever attempted to do any of those things?"
Bolinger replied: "No, not in reality, just in fantasy."
He told the court he had previously been married for about 34 years and that he and his wife had four children, including a boy called Martin who had died before the age of one.
He said he had worked at the Queen Elizabeth The Queen Mother Hospital in Margate, Kent, as a registered nurse.
Mr Jarvis asked him: "When did your interest in the sorts of things we have been hearing about begin?"
Bolinger said: "Probably with puberty but before that it was me saving other children.
"When I first started school I had a fantasy about children being stolen and cooked and I would save them.
"That changed around puberty."
He also told the court he had found the DFN website through another website which contained cartoons of cannibalism.